Drafts update

Found 2 drafts from last year , and just published :)

Today i felt that everyone was unhappy.
Even the atmosphere in the class was different.
But today less dramatic cause i was with the guys.
I finally understand why brotherhoods are stronger than sisterhood.
Less drama.

Yeah i am still upset.
Someone will be away for three days.
So for now i still can survive.
Idk how to face that person after 3 days.
This class is my worst nightmare.
Each and everyone of them has a mask on their face.
Few days ago i found out a small secret, which was bad enough.
and now worse.
Once i'm done with assignment i won't attend classes anymore till finals.

I'm trying my very best to get over everything asap so that i can focus on my finals.
Do pray for me.

Accidentaly emo post

I just can't do it.
I really don't know how else to pretend nothing happened and still smile.
I tried to stay away from them, i tried to stay out of trouble.
but yet, there are still troubles.
I don't want to argue anymore, i have back off.
Still, one after another thing is triggering me.
I totally couldn't focus on my studies.
I tried to be in denial, tried to be motivated
But nothing worked.
If I continue going on this way, i can't imagine how my finals would be.
I know finals is very important but i just couldn't concentrate.
If only changing college is not a hassle, i would have done that.
Sadly i can't
Whatever i feel now i just can't put it in words.
I realized that lately i changed a bit.
My temper is getting worse, roller coaster emotions.
I can't control my temper well lately.
Yet, i am still trying to keep them under control.
Sounded like i'm turning into a monster =/
Oh well, lets hope i survive till the end.

You have no right to judge me,
so don't judge me like you have known me forever.

imsofuckedthistime.

25-11-2012

I always tell myself to be careful and know my limit.
But I tend to forget, then regret ...
Once I've crossed my limit, it is hard for me to go back.
This is my one mistake i tend to make.

If only I stopped myself earlier.
Things would'nt be a problem now.
Knowing that it's too late now.
I dont know if I should go forward or stop it.
Idiot much.


Buck up Emily !



.

Seize from every moment its uniqueness

My purpose today : Blog something
On what? No idea.


Haven't been doing much for this holiday. My plan for holiday did not go as planned.  ): Quite unhappy about it.


On the 3rd of December I will be going on a trip with my family, I hope it is going to be fun.The horror of having long hours of flight ): Sigh ... 


After my trip I might prolly start working in MSIG . Still not sure about it. Then, January I will be going around with papa to work. All the way until February. Then it's Chinese New Year :) Can't wait to meet the crazy bunch and get high !


This summer holiday, it feels like forever. I miss my friends ): the joy and the fun we had together. I miss how we all study together everyday,play together everyday ... I'm happier compared to last year and i hope it stays this way. 3 years will pass with a blink of an eye. So, I have to make the most of every moment.

;D

Little wish

It's November now

Next month will be December 

Hoping nothing bad would happen like the previous year.

Glad that god answers to my prayer.

I just want everything to turn out good, that's all i want.

Not asking for any perfection.

Pretty please ?

New memories

Ever since I started my semester in Monash, I haven't been blogging much or at all. Lol
There are a lot of things I would wanna talk bout if i were to update every single thing since the beginning of the sem.

First of all, I had my life again in Monash, aside from the assignments and test all. 
Manage to go through everything myself :)
So proud of myself. Hahah !
Made new friends and new memories.
Everything was really hard for me at first, but luckily i did not give up.
Now it is already the end of the semester, and i don't want it to end so soon.
I'm constantly happy whenever i'm with my bunch of friends.
Gonna miss them so so much.
I even did pictures compilation for this semester :D

For the first time, i spent most of my time in Uni more than anywhere else.
Seldom at home d...
Gonna do the same thing for the next sem too.
Spending most of my time in uni.
Keeping myself busy is a good way to forget everything :)
Until my own stuffs also i fgt -.-
but when i start to take a break, memories will all come back to me.
LOL 

So for my sem break also, i'm already planning for everything.
gonna keep myself busy and hoping to learn something during the summer break :P
Two more papers to go, and i'm off for holiday.
Looking forward to it.
Long long break for me 
Spend some quality time with my family as well.
Mumy and grandma miss me =D

Shall update during my break.
Crapping too much here.
bai !

If only I can run away from the reality and live in my dreamland ;)

Good evening !
It's Wednesday yoo.
I feel so zombie-ish the whole day.  
This morning, the weather was gloomy yet awesome.
Why awesome ?
Cause it is the best weather to sleep !
Started raining since 10am till 1pm weyy.
Unfortunately, I had to wake up by 11.30 am
To do chores and then rott at home :)


Ah well, lets proceed to Jimmy's celebration.
It was more like a plan phailed kinda thing but still manage to enjoy a lil there. LOL
Had our dinner at Kaki Corner. 
I would say the food there so-so only.
My chicken wasn't well cooked. So there was some blood smell :O
Soo yucky.  


After dinner we went to Jimmy's mum shop to cut cake and bla bla bla.
Then went to his house awhile to lepak.

[ I skipped alot here, because i can't go on blogging.

My head feels so heavy all of a sudden. I need to lie down. ]

As for the pictures here ...

Jimmy surprised Poh Yan with a bouquet of roses and Winnie the Pooh plushy :)

How sweet right. It was his birthday lagi.

Okeh, really need to go now. 

Sorry for my cacated post.

I'm lazy to recall and re-blog this post again.

Bye.

 [ The love of my life  ]

Hello dear readers (if there is any) :)

Finally, i manage to get my lazy ass to blog after don't how long. hahah
As I mentioned in my previous(s) post, I should be updating the Children's Home picture.
Unfortunately, I couldn't find that folder of pictures now ):
Soo ... that update will be on hold.

SO , I had a really long holiday after my foundation.
I finished my foundation at Febuary and my degree intake is July.5 months of holiday :) Sounds awesome kan?But i spent most of my holidays at home rotting with chores, or working in mum's shop.Not.fun.at.all.5 months of boredom man ..Feel my pain !

Right, so this month 16th, it's my orientation :) Fyi, I'm shifting to Monash for my degree.Which means, I have to make friends all over again ):
AND take don't know how many months to get used to the environment and all.
By just thinking of it, scares me already.
Angel had to go for August intake.
Thus, i will have to travel to Monash back and forth alone.
Being independent is not so easy after all. ( for me )
Haih ...

My first time in Taylor,
Parents fetched me to college for a short period, then i started taking train with neighbours,
Then car pool with neighbours, then car pool with college mate.
The only time i drove alone to Taylor was during my finals.
Just for a short period. =3
I was so excited for degree until Angel told me she couldn't join me for July intake.
I stopped counting down. hahah !
I'm unfriendly what to do.

Theres ... 
10 MORE DAYS.
omg . hahaha nervous !
ah whatevers. By then, let see whether i survive that one week of orientation or not :P

Sooo, During this holiday, I went out 2-3 times if i'm not mistaken. 
5 fingers also can count. ( kesiann )

That day, my girls came over too my house for steamboat :D
ngeheheh.How nice.

I'm so thankful to have them, cause in the whole group,

I'm the most mafan one, due to curfews.Like, I can't go far, i need a driver, someone need to fetch me home before midnight.
This and that. Not easy to go out with me. hahah.
Mumy prefer me to have gathering at home, cause she don't like me going out also.



That night, planned to watch football together but there was no match. 
So we ended up with the camera instead.
Hahah

 
  

 

Stone face .__.

 
 

Suddenly, Doline made a stupid face.

And challenged us to do it.

The challenge : Your lips touches your nose with retarded eyes.

[ Beware : Pictures below may cause nightmare or loss of appetite :3 ]

 

 

 

 Well, everyone suceed except me. Nuff said HAHAH They were laughing their ass off cause i was the only that failed -.-
 So i told them to look away, until i get it right.
 Ta - Daa !

 
 

Retards ! damn yong sui :P

 

We are just awesome .

OH ! 26th of June was Marcus birthday.
Hes 4 years old d ! 
My " smart " sister asked for 4 big candles.
That person must be thinking which 40 years old ah pek wants a Power Ranger birthday cake.

According to Marcus, this red Power Ranger is called Okachan :D
Power Rangers use to be my all time favourite too.

Like sister like brother :D

This coming Sunday I get to go out for Poh Yan's boyfie birthday celebration :D

Gloria vs Poh Yan ! :P

And uh this is Jimmy ( her boyfie )

I don't have other picture of him =3

 

People, meet handsome ( he  wanted to be  addresed this way )

and  I miss him ! :)

Goonaite readers :)

Sorry loves ):

Hey peeps.
This is just a short post
Will get back to blogging once i'm free.


Just want to let you guys know,
That i'm not avoiding anyone of you or whatsoever.
I'm really sorry for not replying texts and answering calls.
I'm going thru something now.
So I needed some time alone.
I wanted to speak to someone about it, but I don't think it helps.
So i decided to not speak about it, so I just needed some time alone to sort things out.
Kinda busy lately with my stuffs.
Soo...

Give me about a month or so to get back to you guys.
And also, I don't think I will going for any outings, so don't bother calling me either ;)

Hearts you all !

After the rain comes rainbow

" Lately, it feels like my whole world is falling apart.

Nothing makes sense anymore and I don't know what to do.

It gets harder everyday. It's harder to hide the pain and frustration.

I need a break; the perfect getaway, before I lose all control.

Before I give it all up. "

Soooo,

I think i had posted quite a few of unhappy posts recently.
It's time i start to update some happy post which i forgotten to do so ;)
Since 2011 is ending, so lets refresh some past memories.
So that in the future i get to read back what have i done in my previous year and I want to end my year with happy memories ;).
So I will not let anyone spoil my plan :D



One of the night i sneaked out,again






I'm not gonna write in details, but most of it la kay? ;)
That day I sneaked out to have a drink with my bunch.
They are Kenny, Tracy [babi], Reeve & Poh Yan
So we Chor Dai Di-ed, joke, drink and all.
Everyone had fun.
From the pictures you can see who are the drunk ones. Kenny and Reeve :P
red faced!
And idk why that day everywhere had road blocks =.=
Thankfully, i reached home safely :D
i wasn't drunk or maybe a bit =/
The next day no hangover nothing ;) lucky me


Soo here's a pic that mumy sent me last night, taken in New Zealand. In the aquarium one. LOL. The rest of the pictures are not with me. With my dad ;D



Up next, will be blogging about the day I went to the orphanage with many epic pictures. hahah! If im in a good mood i might post up a video too ;)

Messed up post.

What have i done to deserve all these.
I hate being in this position all the time.
I'm so tired of repeating the same mistake over and over again even tho i told myself many times to NOT TRUST A SINGLE SOUL.

Maybe god is just telling me that i don't deserve any friends.
Past life i must have been betraying all my besties.
One after another time.
I am stupid to the highest degree. i know you agree as well.

Whatever man. I'm speechless.idk what to do, how to react, and HOW TO FACE IT.
Have any idea how do I feel now?
I feel like crying my heart out, and someone to hug.
But, that wouldn't happen, not even in the next 10 years.

When i use my heart to treat someone, that person will think that i have motive for being so good.
OR that person will use me for their own good. ( yeah you must be wondering what to take advantage of right? ) I also don't know but somehow there is ;) Taking me for granted.
Trust me, 90% of my friends does that to me.
Not exaggerating here.

Fucking learn how to distant or your life is so FUCKED, Emily.
I hope this will be my last reminder to myself
I'm the only naive one that think if im good to ppl & they will do the same to me.
Nights.

Partey and Concert

BOO!

Forgot to update in my previous post that i've chopped my hair for a change :D
I miss my long hair now ):
But everyone thinks i look better with short hair now.
Less sakai-ish i guess :P
Kiddo look now.


Oh not to forget my dahling Sarah Ng has changed the blogskin for me ;)
Stupid fella dunu put whos picture on my header (the very first pic), will have to change blogskin it again =/
soon

The picture above is taken the day before yesterday, went for dad's company dinner
[Cabin Crew Nights] the theme was Westend if i'm not mistaken.
Before the dinner was served i was rotting like hell there, idk why the food takes ages to serve.
And i got no one to talk to there
Thank god my babe, Jacky accompanied me text till dinner was served :D
After dinner , was entertained by the performances.
Party all the way till midnight ;D
OH OH and and and David Foster and Michael Bolton joined the dinner halfway.
If you don't know who they are, please google :D




Then last night i went for David Foster and friends concert.
AWESOME MAX.
Charice was a bomb , so adorable :D
Ashanti, Rusell Watson, Phillip Bailey, Michael Bolton, and David Foster were all there.
Theirs voices was amazing.
I had so much fun :)




Okeh i'm getting sleepy already, not gonna elaborate much.
Its 0511 now. :D
Shall blog again tomorrow if i have the time.
Nights world.
<3

Imissthebothofyou

Before semester 1 end,everything just ended so quick.
I kinda regret now for my actions.
I really miss those times when we were all together,
laughing our asses off for nothing,
Playing together everyday,
Texting each other 24/7
But now?
We are just strangers.
Never talk more than 3 sentences.
I miss the moments when we were together,
because in this second semester, everything seemed to be so new to me again.

In times when im down
I really need someone to be there for me, like how they used to be.
Like now, i felt like everything is so screwed up and idk what i should do.
All i really need now is someone to give me some advice, no matter how stubborn i am just make me think straight.
):

Just goto suck it up.

Finally an update

Finally I'm blogging after so so so so long ;)
I will not let my blog die, but just temporary :P

So i shall give a brief update from where i've stopped in my previous post .
I received my sem 1 results, wasn't really that good.
:D
Then i have also mix with a new bunch of friends
New classmates in semester 2
So far everything is fine
As for my studies, i'm not coping well
This semester im slacking alot compared to the previous semester.
LOL
and also, i started playing games, am currently addicted to FB game - Tetris Battle
My very first FB game which i will never get bored of. ;D



I know my update its kinda messy but whatever lah, not like my readers are still reading my blog.
I will blog properly in my next post :P
BYE

Whatevertitle

Whoops ;]

Blogging mood is up !
Next week I'm having my study leave already.
I don't know should i be happy or sad,
because I finally get a week off but in this one week time i got to study for finals ):
After finals, another 2 weeks of holiday ;]



Gotten all my assignments results already.
Quite bad ): I might need to say bye bye to my High Distinction already.
By looking at my marks now, i seriously got no confidence in my finals.
The only subject which im satisfied with the marks is my Accounting.
The subject which i hate most and suck at it
LOL how irony.


English- 30.76 / 40
Accounting- 44 / 50
IT- 23 / 40
Econ - approx 35 / 50
Marketing- yet to know


Teacher say i need to work harder to achieve HD ,
So finals i goto score around 45 / 50 to achieve that !
LOL
How is that possible .hahaha
Next semester i better buck up if not I'm gonna suffer another round @.@


Went for movie with Shereen, Dave and Dave's friend [WK]
Watched " Love is not the answer "
Many hotties :D babes and hunks.
The movie was hilarious and nice :D
I like it. I laughed throughout the movie lol
But the sad part was, we watched it at the wrong place.
Went to IOI Mall to watch.
That place is soo eerie, idk why.
So quiet and not many people there.
Then the cinema was SMALL and it was partly empty.
Me no likey that place !
Never gonna step into that mall ever again :P



Tomorrow onwards my car will enter workshop.
Mumy say my car's black oil is leaking.
No idea why , so goto enter workshop and also do some touch up.
I got no car to drive now =S
tomorrow i got to go back campusss !!
):
OH and Taylor's Degree students,Diploma students, Jan and July intake students came back.
So TAYLOR is having a BIG parking problem =.=
Everywhere parking full.
That day i parked freaking farr.
Scary man D;
Had to start car pooling again.



So, now is time for picturessssss.
Pictures of my boyfie :D
Oh btw hes good at camwhoring already.
He ALWAYS camwhore with his dad's iphone4.
Kids nowadays are really good in technologies .
During my time, i don't even have toys to play.

His camwhore look

I told him to pose "leng zhai" pose, he gave me this look ;)
He was actually posing,
but he beh tahan , so while posing he curi makan honey star.
LOL

He's not just adorable but also good in courting girls.
I'm SERIOUS!
Everywhere he goes, he never fails to attract girls.

That day, my whole family went out for dinner.
He's the only one that were not eating,
So he went to disturb the next table.
He only disturb the ladies =.=
Kept calling them leng lui la.
Then use iphone to take their pictures la,
until that whole table also wana take picture with him
Then want kisses from him again and again.
Not just one lady, but 3 of them !
Sumore their boyfriends were there with them.
Hahahah so daring .
good skills eh? :P

Okay time to study now.
Byee readers.
Good Night.

I'm gonna end this post with MACAROONS !
No reason, just random.
So cute and colourful :D

Life is short, too short to waste a single second with anyone who doesn't appreciate or value you.

emily with her phailed moustache

Today's weather , very hot D;
Slept at 3am [if i'm not mistaken] and woke up at 11am this morning.
Went out to have lunch with mum and sis.
Came home half dead.
It's burning outside =.=


Then came home , wander her and there and finally here i am blogging
After blogging , am gonna continue with my marketing .
Honestly , i don't have the mood to finish it up =.=
Sigh, then got to start revising d.
Sooo lazehhhh ....




Oh and if i say Malaysia is having an experiment on Penguins.
To see whether can penguins live in a hot country, like Malaysia
Will you believe me?
;)


Just kidding ;)
Yeah the dumbo emily , believed. HAHAHAH
so dumb right?

okayokay back to my work.
Ciao readers ;)

I am assuming the answer is no,
I don't wanna wait anymore.

Take me as I am , or watch me as I go

The night when i sneaked out ;)

Oh i forgot to update on the night i sneaked out the other day :P
The day when my parents when back to hometown,
Leaving sis and I home alone ;)
This is what i did.




I sneaked out in the middle of the night
Just to go to Hulu Langat - *siu wan theng* for a drink with my babi and her boyfie.
A memorable night ;)
The view up there was awesome .
I see the whole city with lights,
Starry sky,
Chilly night.
Relaxing ~



If i get to sneak out again.
I wanna goooooo ,




Taylor Lakeside ;)
You must be thinking , what is wrong with me going back to uni in the middle of the night.
Because there were a few of my classmate told me that the night view there was niceee :D
I saw some pictures of it also.
It's really nice, so i must go see for myself one day.



Next i would like to go to Library ;)
Which is the Pub- Library
not the school library :P


Then Genting ;)
Wooots , sneaking up to Genting in the middle of the night.
I wonder when will that happen.
When was the last time i went up there again??
0.0 .....
Nahhhh, i don't remember , go read back my previous posts.



Oh Oh and also i wanna go see the sunrise and sunset in Broga Hill ;)
Super awesome view, which i been dying to go.
But this will have to wait a little longer.
Cause it takes one whole day to get to see both. =/

Pray that i have a sweet dream tonight okay?
;)

I love talking to you before i go to bed
because then i fall asleep with a smile.

My 2 weeks of hell

One in a million

Yeah , shes my one in a million ,
Irreplaceable ;)
And if you don't whos the "she" i'm referring to
Shes the one on the right in the picture - my mumy <3


She had been worried sick for me for the past two weeks,
Worried for my safety , day and night
As i'm travelling alone to uni everyday.
Worried if i had enough sleep.
Worried if i fall sick .
Worried if i can handle my things well.
She might be annoying at times for nagging, but mums are just being mums ;)
Right?
She was really upset with me , at the fact that i don't like to stay at home.
Going uni early and coming back late evening.
Come home , face my assignments then go to bed.
She always thinks that i don't love her.
That really upsets me =/
Maybe its because i don't show it on the outside.



As i had mentioned in my previous post, i went through 2 weeks of hell.
I was so busy with my assignments that i even took my mum for granted.
I didn't even realize it until i did my journal two presentation on, " 3 days visitation to the orphanage ".
I was suppose to present on what i felt during that three days of visitation.
It made me realize that i was very fortunate compared to many kids out there, especially the orphans.
I'm lucky to have a family , and not a broken one.



What gave me a big impact was , when my friend did her presentation.
She said ,there was this orphan , asked her how her parents felt, when she say " I Love You " to them.
Which i doubt , any of us even said that to our parents.
This question had me thinking for 2 days ;)
and it changed me, i started coming home early , to spent time with my mum.
Tell her more of my uni life .
Be more patience with her when shes mad.
Because we humans are fragile, you won't know when accidents happen.


Okay back to my topic ,
During group assignments, i had conflicts with one of my member.
Oh wells,
everyone was so stressed up , so conflict here and there.
I rant everything out d , so i got nothing to rant here :P
I' m becoming a loner again =.=
HAHAH.
anyway, now that my assignment weeks had passed.
Now i just got to focus onmy finalss.
Jeng jeng jeng.
So fast right?



Ahh. but let me clear my mind first.
This few days there are a few things , bothering me.

I'd really wish whenever my phone rang,
it was your message.
Idk why it takes ages for you to reply.