Sunday, November 25, 2012
Today i felt that everyone was unhappy.
Even the atmosphere in the class was different.
But today less dramatic cause i was with the guys.
I finally understand why brotherhoods are stronger than sisterhood.
Less drama.
Yeah i am still upset.
Someone will be away for three days.
So for now i still can survive.
Idk how to face that person after 3 days.
This class is my worst nightmare.
Each and everyone of them has a mask on their face.
Few days ago i found out a small secret, which was bad enough.
and now worse.
Once i'm done with assignment i won't attend classes anymore till finals.
I'm trying my very best to get over everything asap so that i can focus on my finals.
Do pray for me.
Even the atmosphere in the class was different.
But today less dramatic cause i was with the guys.
I finally understand why brotherhoods are stronger than sisterhood.
Less drama.
Yeah i am still upset.
Someone will be away for three days.
So for now i still can survive.
Idk how to face that person after 3 days.
This class is my worst nightmare.
Each and everyone of them has a mask on their face.
Few days ago i found out a small secret, which was bad enough.
and now worse.
Once i'm done with assignment i won't attend classes anymore till finals.
I'm trying my very best to get over everything asap so that i can focus on my finals.
Do pray for me.
Accidentaly emo post
I just can't do it.
I really don't know how else to pretend nothing happened and still smile.
I tried to stay away from them, i tried to stay out of trouble.
but yet, there are still troubles.
I don't want to argue anymore, i have back off.
Still, one after another thing is triggering me.
I totally couldn't focus on my studies.
I tried to be in denial, tried to be motivated
But nothing worked.
If I continue going on this way, i can't imagine how my finals would be.
I know finals is very important but i just couldn't concentrate.
If only changing college is not a hassle, i would have done that.
Sadly i can't
Whatever i feel now i just can't put it in words.
I realized that lately i changed a bit.
My temper is getting worse, roller coaster emotions.
I can't control my temper well lately.
Yet, i am still trying to keep them under control.
Sounded like i'm turning into a monster =/
Oh well, lets hope i survive till the end.
imsofuckedthistime.
I really don't know how else to pretend nothing happened and still smile.
I tried to stay away from them, i tried to stay out of trouble.
but yet, there are still troubles.
I don't want to argue anymore, i have back off.
Still, one after another thing is triggering me.
I totally couldn't focus on my studies.
I tried to be in denial, tried to be motivated
But nothing worked.
If I continue going on this way, i can't imagine how my finals would be.
I know finals is very important but i just couldn't concentrate.
If only changing college is not a hassle, i would have done that.
Sadly i can't
Whatever i feel now i just can't put it in words.
I realized that lately i changed a bit.
My temper is getting worse, roller coaster emotions.
I can't control my temper well lately.
Yet, i am still trying to keep them under control.
Sounded like i'm turning into a monster =/
Oh well, lets hope i survive till the end.
You have no right to judge me,
so don't judge me like you have known me forever.
so don't judge me like you have known me forever.
imsofuckedthistime.
25-11-2012
I always tell myself to be careful and know my limit.
But I tend to forget, then regret ...
Once I've crossed my limit, it is hard for me to go back.
This is my one mistake i tend to make.
If only I stopped myself earlier.
Things would'nt be a problem now.
Knowing that it's too late now.
I dont know if I should go forward or stop it.
Idiot much.
Buck up Emily !
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Friday, November 23, 2012
Seize from every moment its uniqueness
My purpose today : Blog something
On what? No idea.
Haven't been doing much for this holiday. My plan for holiday did not go as planned. ): Quite unhappy about it.
On the 3rd of December I will be going on a trip with my family, I hope it is going to be fun.The horror of having long hours of flight ): Sigh ...
After my trip I might prolly start working in MSIG . Still not sure about it. Then, January I will be going around with papa to work. All the way until February. Then it's Chinese New Year :) Can't wait to meet the crazy bunch and get high !
This summer holiday, it feels like forever. I miss my friends ): the joy and the fun we had together. I miss how we all study together everyday,play together everyday ... I'm happier compared to last year and i hope it stays this way. 3 years will pass with a blink of an eye. So, I have to make the most of every moment.
;D
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Little wish
It's November now
Next month will be December
Hoping nothing bad would happen like the previous year.
Glad that god answers to my prayer.
I just want everything to turn out good, that's all i want.
Not asking for any perfection.
Pretty please ?
New memories
Ever since I started my semester in Monash, I haven't been blogging much or at all. Lol
There are a lot of things I would wanna talk bout if i were to update every single thing since the beginning of the sem.
First of all, I had my life again in Monash, aside from the assignments and test all.
Manage to go through everything myself :)
So proud of myself. Hahah !
Made new friends and new memories.
Everything was really hard for me at first, but luckily i did not give up.
Now it is already the end of the semester, and i don't want it to end so soon.
I'm constantly happy whenever i'm with my bunch of friends.
Gonna miss them so so much.
I even did pictures compilation for this semester :D
For the first time, i spent most of my time in Uni more than anywhere else.
Seldom at home d...
Gonna do the same thing for the next sem too.
Spending most of my time in uni.
Keeping myself busy is a good way to forget everything :)
Until my own stuffs also i fgt -.-
but when i start to take a break, memories will all come back to me.
LOL
So for my sem break also, i'm already planning for everything.
gonna keep myself busy and hoping to learn something during the summer break :P
Two more papers to go, and i'm off for holiday.
Looking forward to it.
Long long break for me
Spend some quality time with my family as well.
Mumy and grandma miss me =D
Shall update during my break.
Crapping too much here.
bai !
There are a lot of things I would wanna talk bout if i were to update every single thing since the beginning of the sem.
First of all, I had my life again in Monash, aside from the assignments and test all.
Manage to go through everything myself :)
So proud of myself. Hahah !
Made new friends and new memories.
Everything was really hard for me at first, but luckily i did not give up.
Now it is already the end of the semester, and i don't want it to end so soon.
I'm constantly happy whenever i'm with my bunch of friends.
Gonna miss them so so much.
I even did pictures compilation for this semester :D
For the first time, i spent most of my time in Uni more than anywhere else.
Seldom at home d...
Gonna do the same thing for the next sem too.
Spending most of my time in uni.
Keeping myself busy is a good way to forget everything :)
Until my own stuffs also i fgt -.-
but when i start to take a break, memories will all come back to me.
LOL
So for my sem break also, i'm already planning for everything.
gonna keep myself busy and hoping to learn something during the summer break :P
Two more papers to go, and i'm off for holiday.
Looking forward to it.
Long long break for me
Spend some quality time with my family as well.
Mumy and grandma miss me =D
Shall update during my break.
Crapping too much here.
bai !
If only I can run away from the reality and live in my dreamland ;)
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