Same shit happen

Here I am waiting, I'll have to leave soon 
Why am I, holding on? 
We knew this day would come, we knew it all along 
How did it, come so fast? 
This is our last night but it's late 
And I'm trying not to sleep 
Cause I know, when I wake, I will have to slip away 

And when the daylight comes I'll have to go 
But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close 
Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own 
But tonight I need to hold you so close 
Oh-woah, oh-woah, oh-woah 
Oh-woah, oh-woah, oh-woah 

Here I am staring at your perfection 
In my arms, so beautiful 
The sky is getting bright the stars are burning out 
Somebody slow it down 
This is way too hard, cause I know 
When the sun comes up, I will leave 
This is my last glance that will soon be memory 

And when the daylight comes I'll have to go 
But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close 
Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own 
But tonight I need to hold you so close 
Oh-woah, oh-woah, oh-woah 
Oh-woah, oh-woah, oh-woah 

I never wanted to stop because I don't wanna start all over, start all over 
I was afraid of the dark but now it's all that I want, all that I want, all that I want 

And when the daylight comes I'll have to go 
But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close 
Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own 
But tonight I need to hold you so close 

Love kills

I just got back from music night event organised by one of the Monash clubs.
It was great :) 

This few months i've been feeling quite down.
Really really down.
I think break ups also wasn't as bad as this LOL

A friend of mine told me today, that i've changed a lot
Since the first day I was in Monash until now.
I started changing when I got into relationship.
They think i'm going down instead of improving (which i agree as well)
According to them I used to be enthusiastic, happy, outgoing and independent but now it's all totally opposite.
Before getting into relationship, I have made it clear to my bf that this is me and I will never change even if its for him.
Ha Ha
But now, I think I'm moving toward the wrong path.
I've became more moody.
Tho there are happy times as well.
But I'm often sad now
Maybe it's my attitude.
I'm really disappointed with myself and idk how to change back to the old me.
My friends told me i need to change to the old me. Now, i'm not the girl they want. 
In fact, they are more disappointed with me now.

You used to be different.

Really different.

I can't do much about it as well.

Yes i'm hurt, very hurt.

But all i can do is keep to myself.

Keep, keep, keep and keep

Waiting for a time to explode.

Should I keep going, or give up ?

Why do I still keep holding on?

What is stopping me?